dejavu | bohemianbeauty72's Blog

i hate it as it scares me.just before major turning avents in my life i get a spate of strong dejavu,when i first met the father of my children,just before my house fire,when i first came to the company that i met my current partner.i have had it alot recently and its scaring me as i believe im at a cross roads,in the past my life has been turned upside down and im scared, i suppose the end resolt was always personel growth and most likely up heavle but man im freaking out.....i think my partners at the same cross roads and hes not coping well at all, actully ive never seen andrei sob so hard foor so long.......i dont want to loose him but depending on the desision made at these cross roads i may  loose him........im scared and i fucking hate dejvu             I HAVE TO HAVE FAITH....MY ANGELS HAVE NEVER LET ME DOWN AND IM SURE THEY WONT NOW,But unfortunatly i cant shake that naging feeling hat im not alowed to be happy in this life